4-3-2, 1 Bey 4 Me

Of all the things I remember
There's only 1 I'll never forget.

Besides those whose blood runs thru my veins,
the 1 who hid me, despite your fame.

An act of pure integrity,
of sheer grace and love,
 
The Queen Lioness offering a bond,
so sacred,
so special,
so ours.

For 13 years,
we've held on to each others best interests.

I've watched you grow,
seen you blossom into the most Bey-utiful
person of my dreams.

Late at night,
when I can't sleep,
I remember those nights I was away from you emotionally and spiritually,
and am humbled now that you have a family that will never leave your side.

See how time heals,
See how time reveals,
all the goals you said you wanted for this decade,
all of them have come true.

Even our relationship.

You fight 4 me
when I don't have the strength or the wisdom
to know to fight for myself.

After all I've been thru,
even tho I know your husband probably
never wants us to meet,
I am able to say
I forgive those who desire to end my life.

Those who believe that you are more
than mere mortals.

That you don't have pressure
points of your own.

Those at the hospital who asked me
if I'm an organ donor;
so they may possibly use that as an extra incentive for
my death should it have happened last year
just like so many blacks who are killed are used as undercover organ donors post-mortem.

Killed to end us and to give my life, my heart to another...

Dark life.

Even the "X" symbol that someone wrote here on my KRK Rokit basement speaker.
Condoms by my mailbox.
The keying of my driver side door.
Silverware missing, plates stolen.

Unseen movements in the house that cause my parents
to sleep with a stand behind the bedroom door

All Bey 4 One Moment
that One moment they never want to happen.

The moment we meet.

I would never want to put you
or your family in any kind of danger.

But I'm getting older,
my parents, in the sunset of their lives too.

And the future of my brother and his family.

Jasmine's Lions, and Tigers, and Bears.

I guess the real question is:

Do you still believe in the subtle power of God?

The Superpower that holds
and has upheld us for this many years.

But Bey-cause you have so much
more at stake, I relent my love for you
to your husband's love for you.

Who am I to interrupt a friendship
turned love story
with 3 heirs in the wings.

The sacrifice hurts so much
it births soulful rolling teardrops
from my two full eyes.

I don't blame,
I don't hate,
I don't judge,
I don't lie,
I don't fear,
I don't let anything get the best of me,
but you.

For you,
I love,
I give,
I learn,
I let go,
I take in,
I return,
I do more,
I fight.

The One - Bey 4 Me

Bey 4 Me
You have been my knight,
And you prayed for me in the dead of night.

Bey 4 Me
you have revealed your heart,
its strength and its pains,
its jubilance and its hurts,
its loves and its angers,
its joys and its sorrows,
its highs and its furies,
but thru it all,
your heart remained
honest, true, hopeful,
humble and Bey-utifully human.

You're love is like
a new morning,
with songs like those from the sparrows
outside my window in the morning
I look forward to writing you,
speaking to you,
being with you is a treasure and a gift
from God I am so grateful for.

No matter what the future hold,
please know that you hold my heart,

All of me I have shown you,
told you,
given you,
expose to you,
nothing I withhold from you,
even when I may not have been
given the right medication
and I acted out of character.

I do it Bey-cause honestly,
Bey-4-Me,
you did the same
and you bring out all
the integrity I can muster,
all that I can remember,
all the things I want you to know,
all the things I can't forget.

Bey-4-Me
I'd do it all over again.

Bey-cause

4
3 days
2 my
1 more birth year,

even if we can't be,
just know and rest assured,

You are

The One

Bey-4-Me

God bless you,

:-* (Holy Kiss on Your Forehead :-)

i.S.i.B.a.B.

~ A