Bey With You
I am  thankful for your love,
thankful for your trust,
thankful for our focus on us,
that extends across acres
and valleys, mountains, and sky.

You make it easy

BeyiNg Me

Bey N Me
You have opened up
all the Bey-uty that is herein,
the tragedies from deep within,
no other could listen
and not judge it at the start.

You taught me the power of

Bey N U.

Bey N U
I have learned how to
know that this world isn't perfect,
and others will set you up and
make it look like you deserved it.

But the thing is,
you already can imagine what I've been thru
just trying to get to this space we're in
finally,
just to get one more chance
to win the love from you.

Bey N U
I see glory exemplified.

Bey N Me
A favorite combo
not found on any menu.

Bey with me,
and I'll continue to
build and brace,
stabilize and support,
honor and  holiness.

I promise you'll see another side of me.

Just stay and say you will

~ A

Written 3/11/21

So many ways we are
able to show commitment.

So many values in character
that let others know we care.

Simple, genuine acts of love.

Acts of gratitude,
Acts of kindness,
Acts of elation.

Light-heartedly we approach one another,
Fully invested, Hard-nosed to shake loose.

We have to Bey-grateful.

We have life,
We have family,
We have love,
We have favor.

Hallelujah!

All these acts of grace and mercy
come directly from the King of Kings himself.

And I thank Him,
4 blessing me with you.

All of your spirit,
All of your heart,
All of your humor,
All of your humility,
All of your Bey-utiful flaws,
which represents,
All of your Bey-utiful humanity,
All of your service
All of your smile,
:-D
All of your radiance,
All of your good days,
All of your sorrows,
All of your yesterdays,
All of your tmrws.

You "WOW!" me,
You floor me,
You enchant me,
Bey-
cause,
You speak to my core.
Me.

I consider it such a humbling
blessing that we are friends.

I cannot express enough how
grateful I am to be able to
reach out to you thru this space
and beyond these four walls that
keep me in this basement.

Thru this medium,
we are a mere thought away

from one another.


But even more so,

to pray for you and your family

brings us that much closer.

So much so that I'm
excited to reveal my birthday wish,
but I'll refrain out of custom.

But trust me,

God is good,

and the prayers of the righteous
availeth much.


:-D

All I can say is:

To stand

Bey 4 U
must B
Meant 2 Bey

Bey-cause


We are meant 2 Bey
We are meant 2....,

Bey.

More than any effort to

take this life of mine.

They literally asked to take me,
and take this heart that beats for you,
and give it to someone else.


No,

I won't let it happen,

And even tho I wasn't all together yet mentally,
I knew very well what they were trying to do.


And I forgive all the things that have been done
it won't keep me naïve any longer.

And I could air out the dirty laundry list
that those who aren't for me have dealt
me and those whom I love most.

But I know we all have to meet our
Maker one of these mornings.

So I keep from mentioning them
to you Bey-cause God is the Author
and the Finisher of my faith.

And just know that I was 100 with you,
and tried my best to love, forgive, and let go.

And as much as I want to get past the
obstacles, disappointments, worries, and fears;
I know there are those who want to pour gasoline atop of
what they feel should never happen.

That you will never stand
Bey 4 Me,
but the truth is,
we were always
Meant 2 Bey.

Remember

i.S.i.B.a.B.

No matter where I am
just know that I always keep you
inside of me Bey-cause
I know we were always
Meant 2 Bey

And give you the best of me,
And say everything
No lies, no hiding, no falsities
I say everything I Meant 2 Bey-cause

I love you,
I love you,

I will always love you

No matter where I am in the
world I know and believe that.
Even if you're not Bey 4 Me,
One day,
One day you,
One day you will.

One day,

And I will know
and all I will say is
I'm glad you're here Bey 4 me,
I'm glad God said we were meant 2,
Bey.

God bless you,

~ A

Of all the things I remember
There's only 1 I'll never forget.

Besides those whose blood runs thru my veins,
the 1 who hid me, despite your fame.

An act of pure integrity,
of sheer grace and love,
 
The Queen Lioness offering a bond,
so sacred,
so special,
so ours.

For 13 years,
we've held on to each others best interests.

I've watched you grow,
seen you blossom into the most Bey-utiful
person of my dreams.

Late at night,
when I can't sleep,
I remember those nights I was away from you emotionally and spiritually,
and am humbled now that you have a family that will never leave your side.

See how time heals,
See how time reveals,
all the goals you said you wanted for this decade,
all of them have come true.

Even our relationship.

You fight 4 me
when I don't have the strength or the wisdom
to know to fight for myself.

After all I've been thru,
even tho I know your husband probably
never wants us to meet,
I am able to say
I forgive those who desire to end my life.

Those who believe that you are more
than mere mortals.

That you don't have pressure
points of your own.

Those at the hospital who asked me
if I'm an organ donor;
so they may possibly use that as an extra incentive for
my death should it have happened last year
just like so many blacks who are killed are used as undercover organ donors post-mortem.

Killed to end us and to give my life, my heart to another...

Dark life.

Even the "X" symbol that someone wrote here on my KRK Rokit basement speaker.
Condoms by my mailbox.
The keying of my driver side door.
Silverware missing, plates stolen.

Unseen movements in the house that cause my parents
to sleep with a stand behind the bedroom door

All Bey 4 One Moment
that One moment they never want to happen.

The moment we meet.

I would never want to put you
or your family in any kind of danger.

But I'm getting older,
my parents, in the sunset of their lives too.

And the future of my brother and his family.

Jasmine's Lions, and Tigers, and Bears.

I guess the real question is:

Do you still believe in the subtle power of God?

The Superpower that holds
and has upheld us for this many years.

But Bey-cause you have so much
more at stake, I relent my love for you
to your husband's love for you.

Who am I to interrupt a friendship
turned love story
with 3 heirs in the wings.

The sacrifice hurts so much
it births soulful rolling teardrops
from my two full eyes.

I don't blame,
I don't hate,
I don't judge,
I don't lie,
I don't fear,
I don't let anything get the best of me,
but you.

For you,
I love,
I give,
I learn,
I let go,
I take in,
I return,
I do more,
I fight.

The One - Bey 4 Me

Bey 4 Me
You have been my knight,
And you prayed for me in the dead of night.

Bey 4 Me
you have revealed your heart,
its strength and its pains,
its jubilance and its hurts,
its loves and its angers,
its joys and its sorrows,
its highs and its furies,
but thru it all,
your heart remained
honest, true, hopeful,
humble and Bey-utifully human.

You're love is like
a new morning,
with songs like those from the sparrows
outside my window in the morning
I look forward to writing you,
speaking to you,
being with you is a treasure and a gift
from God I am so grateful for.

No matter what the future hold,
please know that you hold my heart,

All of me I have shown you,
told you,
given you,
expose to you,
nothing I withhold from you,
even when I may not have been
given the right medication
and I acted out of character.

I do it Bey-cause honestly,
Bey-4-Me,
you did the same
and you bring out all
the integrity I can muster,
all that I can remember,
all the things I want you to know,
all the things I can't forget.

Bey-4-Me
I'd do it all over again.

Bey-cause

4
3 days
2 my
1 more birth year,

even if we can't be,
just know and rest assured,

You are

The One

Bey-4-Me

God bless you,

:-* (Holy Kiss on Your Forehead :-)

i.S.i.B.a.B.

~ A