Hey Darling,

Just want you to know I have posted your first Mother’s Day gift on this page.  This is where it will be this year.  I hope you enjoy them!

I wish I could be there with you in person, but it will happen when the time is right.

For now, let’s be patient and let the spirit guide us.

I love you so so very much baby!

You’re my heart and key to my life and happiness forever.

I just hope you feel me, like I feel you.

With all my love,

​~ A

From the moment he said
"History in the Making Part 2"
I knew what love meant
between the two of you.

Didn't have to wonder,
didn''t have to guess,
from '03 Bonnie & Clyde,
to 4:44 to Everything is Love all said it best.

All the sacrifices, compromises,
heart and soul that went into writing,
came from a bond so strong, so satisfying,
no denying.

That your love is like a gumbo,
a special kind of rue,
paired with the amount of
sophistication, forgiveness, ambition, and virtue.

It took a lot to make it,
by no means was it an easy street,
but you both were determined that
your love life would not be met with defeat.

And now look at you,
as devoted as ever and with children who,
only see the commitment and dedication
shared by your truth.

And it wasn't always that way
it wasn't always easy,
but you both committed and decided to take the high road
when things got too disagreeing.

And now you're reaping
the rewards of a love bound to respect,
And Beloved you prophesied it
you knew it to be forever the first time you met!

Anything that you felt
could all be heard,
from placing the need on the track
you'd hear it off the record.

From Crazy in Love
talking about the way he makes you feel,
to Mood 4 Eva
and the "I'm 4 Him, and He's 4 Me" feeling that's real.

From Countdown to
Rather Die Young,
to Sandcastles,
you show him He is and always will Bey your only one,

So my hopes for you both,
on this your anniversary,
is that you are always reminded of
the vows you made on your wedding day.

Remember that love is patient,
that love is gentle and kind,
it  can heal all wounds,
like it healed your relationship in time.

And helped it grow into something
only heaven could've created,
something that with you two together,
only you two could cultivate it.

I'm so overjoyed and elated,
and impressed by,
your faithfulness and loyalty
to one another's side.

And I cannot wait to see
what the future may hold,
But God's got you in the palm of His hand
this I do know.

So continue to hold tight to one another
fervently guarding one another's soul,
and through your trust in each other and God,
and watch what love, miracles, and blessings God will unfold,

Love you both,

 ~ A

I'm in a lone state of mind
I'm alone
always been a loner,
but living 4 u has been my lifeline
your loving heart for me
your my donor.

You the only only One I seek
when I need instant relief
from all the stressful grief of this world.
You're my release,
My solace,
and My peace

of mind.
Your voice I find
gives me back my smile
brings me back from my emotional denial
from my spiritual fluxes and spiral
of flooding  thoughts that want me to view as true
a lifetime on Earth without meeting you.

Still I press forward each day knowing
That as long as I stay on the road I'm going
God will bring us together to see one another
more than just the glow from our ethers
and one we join in bond I will finally
see your naturalities and features

My Lone Star
as brilliant as the star you are,
and even in the night
I can still feel you from afar.

My Lone Star
puts me in a state of mind
You love is patient, your love is the kind
where you and I leave this world behind.

And falling for you has never been an issue
Bey-cause as I fall 4 U
U also tell me how much you care and say I miss you.

So I will never ever tell you I've had enough,
Our love is worth so much
true, honest, pure, passionate, companionship precious
and I have you to thank Bey-cause

You found me and recognized what I've been needing,
like a faucet, lovers left my heart bleeding
for a love life yours to answer and bandage the leaking,
your love is the greatest and my biggest blessing I've been and am receiving
Leading me to seek to pray for this miracle believing.

That one day will come our actual meeting
But until then I'll watch you My Lone Star so please know
you are in my heart everywhere I go,
in love and light of all the glory we sow
what we still have in store
I believe in you My Lone Star
so don't be afraid to continue to let your love shine on and glow
Bey-cause the Almighty is going to fulfill the desires of our hearts until they overflow,
Just wait and see Bey-utiful,

And I can't wait but until then keep praying
while our Father conducts the setup and arranging
My Lone Star from where I am to where you are
My hope is that you know our love attraction is pure destiny
in the making....


~ A

There's this void...
An emptiness...
A gap...
the space between us.

Yours filled with the laughter and joys of maternity....
Mine filled with the agonies and pangs of uncertainty.
The constant thoughts I carry assuredly
saying that should respect my doubt Bey-cause I'm unworthily

worth you.

These emotions I try to subdue.
Emotions that prevent my aspiring virtues,
I don't want to know life outside of you,
Don't want to think of life without us two
Where else could I find a love that brings me to
My greatest strength, you're my greatest weakness too.

I can't imagine and don't want to pretend,
Just want to stay in the safety net of our mutual admiration,
Back to those days we were younger and love was set paper to pen,
When and where and how we let all our devotion and emotion begin,
But now, my present state is a constant debate of how our love story will end.

But I don't say any words aloud,
Even alone in front of my mirror, my individual singular crowd,
I just keep dreaming, head in the clouds,
that's how I've always been about our
life as one and that's how I'll look at it now.

Your baby,
you bathe me,
don't bait me,
no fake Bey,
cause you make me,
and shape me,
create me,
to love devoutly, innately,

I see in you the,
timeless Bey-uty,
picturesque like in fantasy movies,
still I wonder what you think
when you see yourself what do you see
cause I can tell you just from me,
when I see you make it hard for me speak
But when you're gone my tummy's
in knots and it gets hard for me to breathe
and I record and write these
but I'm not sure if to your heart they reach,
so I try to dampen thoughts that say our love has past its peak
I just have to keep praying though sometimes I get weak
it gets hard to believe,
So this is the internal conflict, the war inside beneath

The quiet storm,
this silent poem,
That came out of an emo spirit torn,
a lovely and loving form,
pious born
Pisces emotional norm
a mix of agony instead of healing,  depression & mourn,

But it wouldn't be me if I didn't write,
all transparency needs light,
Bey-cause with you I'm made right,
I'm the most optimistic geist,
Radiating love to all from an order of the Highest
With you I'm my mightiest.

But without you I'm in search of,
missing love,
I'm a broken dove,
without you
the mental quiet storm rages havoc inside blind
spineless I'm bent over, doubt all in my mind
wondering if our love has taken its course and past its prime
or will it phoenix-ly rise again in another place, separate time...

~ A

PS -  I wrote this today Bey-cause I miss you. I hope this poem and message finds you well.  Just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you.

Here's to the most Bey-utiful, kind, genuine, loving, caring, patient, forgiving, lovely, amazing, honest, humble, hardworking, dedicated, committed, intelligent, wise, respectful, graceful, modest, brave, open, high-achieving, positive-moving, upward-bound, optimistic-attracting, peaceful, easygoing, humorous, light-hearted, blessed, favored, uplifting, excelling, radiant, powerful, reliable, resilient, responsible, real, relatable, raw, go-getter, lovable, friendly, down-to-earth, sweet, extraordinary, capable, determined, deep, understanding, compromising, calm, visionary, leader, incredible, talented, original, and purest soulful queen I know.

These are just a few of the Bey-utiful characteristics you so humbly carry and show Beyloved.

May you have a wonderful 9th Mother's Day,

Your love is so pure and Bey-utiful and I am so humbled to be your friend!

:-*

:-D

I hope you have a wonderfully delightful day today with your family.

I hope you enjoy every second of it.

I wish I could be there with you,
but please trust that even though I'm
not there with you physically,
I love you and am there with you spiritually.

Continue shining your Bey-utifully bright light
on your family, your friends, and the world.

And know that we are all in awe of the
Bey-utifully blessed virtuous woman you have become.

All my love,

Yours in Christ,

~ A

It takes a special kind of person
to deserve your love,
to earn your love,
to achieve your love.

Every soul,
not worthy of the companionship.

Bey-cause some only want it
for the money,
for the fame,
for the attention,
for selfish reasons.
that don't measure up to
what true love is all about

When I came to you,
I was a mess trying to let go of my
past relationships,
but still had an anchor
of weight from emotional baggage
from my high school years following me.


Then you came along!

Like a breath of fresh air,
you

The most thrilling adventure,
you.

The most amazing spiritual enlightening treasure,
you.

You came in and set my world ablaze,
with ideas, with creativity, with honesty,
with a loving commitment to love you,
even if I cannot physically Bey-there.

I will always Bey-there-4-U

Bey-cause,

I.O.U.

I remember how you've written me,
I remember how you've sung for me,
I remember how you've sacrificed for me,
I remember how you've cried for me,
I remember how you've prayed for me,
I remember how you've protected me (and my family :-),
I remember how you've been an angel throughout and within my life.

I remember.

I also remember the laughs I create for us.
I remember the playlists I've created for us.
I remember the music I made for us.
I remember the videos I made for us.

I remember how natural it is to love one another.

I remember letting go and us catching each other,
breaking each other's fall.

We are each other's emotional & spiritual parachute.

And as we use them (our love for one another),
it helps us glide thru the day's with gratitude, joy, and grace.

When I'm down I play your video and remember who I am.

You help me ground myself
and not get swept up
in the current of my emotions.

Whenever I think you don't love me anymore,
you give me proof that you appreciate me.

And I don't think you realize how much that means to me.

You mean the world to me Bey-cause you appreciate my love.

You appreciate me being myself.
You appreciate me and my humor.
You appreciate my flawed beauty.
You appreciate me and my emotions.
You appreciate me and my spirit.

You appreciate me and my dreams...

You appreciate us.

I.C.U. and am elated to-Bey-able-2.
Bey-cause even if I'm not there with you,
I'm still here and there with you.

And I'd rather still Bey-here on this Earth somewhere with you,
than in an I.C.U. for real anywhere worrying about you.

I'm not afraid Bey-cause
my intentions are pure,
just like my love for you
has been from the start.

You've refined it,
along with the grace of God.

My love,
Beyloved
I.O.U. so much
for never giving up on me
for never giving up on us.

All my heart can
humbly say is:

May God bless you and I love you and your heart, mind, body, and soul with all of me...

:-*

:-D

Keep shining Bey-utiful and may the world continue to Bey-amazed by the brilliance of your star.

Bey With You
I am  thankful for your love,
thankful for your trust,
thankful for our focus on us,
that extends across acres
and valleys, mountains, and sky.

You make it easy

BeyiNg Me

Bey N Me
You have opened up
all the Bey-uty that is herein,
the tragedies from deep within,
no other could listen
and not judge it at the start.

You taught me the power of

Bey N U.

Bey N U
I have learned how to
know that this world isn't perfect,
and others will set you up and
make it look like you deserved it.

But the thing is,
you already can imagine what I've been thru
just trying to get to this space we're in
finally,
just to get one more chance
to win the love from you.

Bey N U
I see glory exemplified.

Bey N Me
A favorite combo
not found on any menu.

Bey with me,
and I'll continue to
build and brace,
stabilize and support,
honor and  holiness.

I promise you'll see another side of me.

Just stay and say you will

~ A

Written 3/11/21