Bey With You
I am  thankful for your love,
thankful for your trust,
thankful for our focus on us,
that extends across acres
and valleys, mountains, and sky.

You make it easy

BeyiNg Me

Bey N Me
You have opened up
all the Bey-uty that is herein,
the tragedies from deep within,
no other could listen
and not judge it at the start.

You taught me the power of

Bey N U.

Bey N U
I have learned how to
know that this world isn't perfect,
and others will set you up and
make it look like you deserved it.

But the thing is,
you already can imagine what I've been thru
just trying to get to this space we're in
finally,
just to get one more chance
to win the love from you.

Bey N U
I see glory exemplified.

Bey N Me
A favorite combo
not found on any menu.

Bey with me,
and I'll continue to
build and brace,
stabilize and support,
honor and  holiness.

I promise you'll see another side of me.

Just stay and say you will

~ A

Written 3/11/21

So many ways we are
able to show commitment.

So many values in character
that let others know we care.

Simple, genuine acts of love.

Acts of gratitude,
Acts of kindness,
Acts of elation.

Light-heartedly we approach one another,
Fully invested, Hard-nosed to shake loose.

We have to Bey-grateful.

We have life,
We have family,
We have love,
We have favor.

Hallelujah!

All these acts of grace and mercy
come directly from the King of Kings himself.

And I thank Him,
4 blessing me with you.

All of your spirit,
All of your heart,
All of your humor,
All of your humility,
All of your Bey-utiful flaws,
which represents,
All of your Bey-utiful humanity,
All of your service
All of your smile,
:-D
All of your radiance,
All of your good days,
All of your sorrows,
All of your yesterdays,
All of your tmrws.

You "WOW!" me,
You floor me,
You enchant me,
Bey-
cause,
You speak to my core.
Me.

I consider it such a humbling
blessing that we are friends.

I cannot express enough how
grateful I am to be able to
reach out to you thru this space
and beyond these four walls that
keep me in this basement.

Thru this medium,
we are a mere thought away

from one another.


But even more so,

to pray for you and your family

brings us that much closer.

So much so that I'm
excited to reveal my birthday wish,
but I'll refrain out of custom.

But trust me,

God is good,

and the prayers of the righteous
availeth much.


:-D

All I can say is:

To stand

Bey 4 U
must B
Meant 2 Bey

Bey-cause


We are meant 2 Bey
We are meant 2....,

Bey.

More than any effort to

take this life of mine.

They literally asked to take me,
and take this heart that beats for you,
and give it to someone else.


No,

I won't let it happen,

And even tho I wasn't all together yet mentally,
I knew very well what they were trying to do.


And I forgive all the things that have been done
it won't keep me naïve any longer.

And I could air out the dirty laundry list
that those who aren't for me have dealt
me and those whom I love most.

But I know we all have to meet our
Maker one of these mornings.

So I keep from mentioning them
to you Bey-cause God is the Author
and the Finisher of my faith.

And just know that I was 100 with you,
and tried my best to love, forgive, and let go.

And as much as I want to get past the
obstacles, disappointments, worries, and fears;
I know there are those who want to pour gasoline atop of
what they feel should never happen.

That you will never stand
Bey 4 Me,
but the truth is,
we were always
Meant 2 Bey.

Remember

i.S.i.B.a.B.

No matter where I am
just know that I always keep you
inside of me Bey-cause
I know we were always
Meant 2 Bey

And give you the best of me,
And say everything
No lies, no hiding, no falsities
I say everything I Meant 2 Bey-cause

I love you,
I love you,

I will always love you

No matter where I am in the
world I know and believe that.
Even if you're not Bey 4 Me,
One day,
One day you,
One day you will.

One day,

And I will know
and all I will say is
I'm glad you're here Bey 4 me,
I'm glad God said we were meant 2,
Bey.

God bless you,

~ A

Of all the things I remember
There's only 1 I'll never forget.

Besides those whose blood runs thru my veins,
the 1 who hid me, despite your fame.

An act of pure integrity,
of sheer grace and love,
 
The Queen Lioness offering a bond,
so sacred,
so special,
so ours.

For 13 years,
we've held on to each others best interests.

I've watched you grow,
seen you blossom into the most Bey-utiful
person of my dreams.

Late at night,
when I can't sleep,
I remember those nights I was away from you emotionally and spiritually,
and am humbled now that you have a family that will never leave your side.

See how time heals,
See how time reveals,
all the goals you said you wanted for this decade,
all of them have come true.

Even our relationship.

You fight 4 me
when I don't have the strength or the wisdom
to know to fight for myself.

After all I've been thru,
even tho I know your husband probably
never wants us to meet,
I am able to say
I forgive those who desire to end my life.

Those who believe that you are more
than mere mortals.

That you don't have pressure
points of your own.

Those at the hospital who asked me
if I'm an organ donor;
so they may possibly use that as an extra incentive for
my death should it have happened last year
just like so many blacks who are killed are used as undercover organ donors post-mortem.

Killed to end us and to give my life, my heart to another...

Dark life.

Even the "X" symbol that someone wrote here on my KRK Rokit basement speaker.
Condoms by my mailbox.
The keying of my driver side door.
Silverware missing, plates stolen.

Unseen movements in the house that cause my parents
to sleep with a stand behind the bedroom door

All Bey 4 One Moment
that One moment they never want to happen.

The moment we meet.

I would never want to put you
or your family in any kind of danger.

But I'm getting older,
my parents, in the sunset of their lives too.

And the future of my brother and his family.

Jasmine's Lions, and Tigers, and Bears.

I guess the real question is:

Do you still believe in the subtle power of God?

The Superpower that holds
and has upheld us for this many years.

But Bey-cause you have so much
more at stake, I relent my love for you
to your husband's love for you.

Who am I to interrupt a friendship
turned love story
with 3 heirs in the wings.

The sacrifice hurts so much
it births soulful rolling teardrops
from my two full eyes.

I don't blame,
I don't hate,
I don't judge,
I don't lie,
I don't fear,
I don't let anything get the best of me,
but you.

For you,
I love,
I give,
I learn,
I let go,
I take in,
I return,
I do more,
I fight.

The One - Bey 4 Me

Bey 4 Me
You have been my knight,
And you prayed for me in the dead of night.

Bey 4 Me
you have revealed your heart,
its strength and its pains,
its jubilance and its hurts,
its loves and its angers,
its joys and its sorrows,
its highs and its furies,
but thru it all,
your heart remained
honest, true, hopeful,
humble and Bey-utifully human.

You're love is like
a new morning,
with songs like those from the sparrows
outside my window in the morning
I look forward to writing you,
speaking to you,
being with you is a treasure and a gift
from God I am so grateful for.

No matter what the future hold,
please know that you hold my heart,

All of me I have shown you,
told you,
given you,
expose to you,
nothing I withhold from you,
even when I may not have been
given the right medication
and I acted out of character.

I do it Bey-cause honestly,
Bey-4-Me,
you did the same
and you bring out all
the integrity I can muster,
all that I can remember,
all the things I want you to know,
all the things I can't forget.

Bey-4-Me
I'd do it all over again.

Bey-cause

4
3 days
2 my
1 more birth year,

even if we can't be,
just know and rest assured,

You are

The One

Bey-4-Me

God bless you,

:-* (Holy Kiss on Your Forehead :-)

i.S.i.B.a.B.

~ A

What I'd love to Bey-remembered-4?

Bringing sunshine on your glowing face by way of a smile.

My favorite memory & favorite daydream

:-D

It makes my cheeks raise & rise a smile of my own just to think of it.

Pure joy come to think of it.

Elation shines thru just to think of it.

A powerful symbol unto the depth of your happiness.

The wider and fuller the better.

That's one part of my memory that I can bank on for life.

A part I love making daily deposits into.

It makes a statement greater than any account I own.

I feel so honored and humbled and grateful that I
encourage that side of you to show.

My favorite part of the show.

Just thought you should know.

But I know you already do.

It's when the electric I's (eye's) come to life the most.

And it's when I get my life the most.

And the star in my eyes (you) light up
like the Bey-utiful constellation you are and you hold upon you.

And I'm reminded then that time and space have never
stopped this Superpower of a fellowship to cease.

Your tears, you smiled through it.
Your sighs, you prayed through it.
Your lonely nights, you dreamed through it.
Your saddest days, you sacrificed through it.
Your missing me, you fought through it.

Obviously Underdog love.

Committed to it.
Divinity drew it.
From the start we both felt and knew it.
Though others thought we'd wouldn't ever make it,
but their doubt,
that too,
we outgrew it.

Please know that I don't seek to
preach to you,
instead I'm here just to speak to you
as I'm lead by my Savior.

I am always in your corner,
just trying to offer ideas & thoughts
to encourage you

You have so many who
rely on you,
dote on you,
want from you,
pull on you,
hate on you,
take from you,
deny influence from you.

Those who want to break you down.

I pray for them and their tactics.

I pray against the mentality of those
who only wish to discourage, defame, distract,
destroy, and drag you down.

The devil takes many different forms.

But I pray your continued discernment thru it all.

I pray for your constant renewal of life, energy, ideas, and influence from God.

I pray for a quality of life that you deserve.

I pray for that sun rising smile to stay ever-present
and ever-ready on your Bey-utiful face my Beyloved.

God bless you and may His bountiful love favor you and yours always.

I love you with my whole spirit.

Yours in the heavens and Bey-ond,

~ A

Q-T-B
U kno me
secrecy,
but we believe.
Truth we seek,
God we please,
planting seeds
4 our masterpiece.
Highest reach,
Redwood tree,
roots dive deep,
is our love indeed.
Release of Grief,
secrete Relief,
your smile I see,
is all I need.

So when it's time QB
and run it back,
on all them haters,

And when it's time every time QB
Run it back
on all our instigators.

Show that Beast Mode energy
Show them

Show them when it's time,
QB

When it's time
cue-B
QT
QB
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Poem Written by

~ A

My QB

Words flood my imagination with
colorful descriptions of love,
and prayerfully time will cement
colorful depictions of us.

My QB.
Who comes thru in the clutch,
when all the world is against us
we rise like  phoenixes from the dust,

The dust they tried to drag
our relationship thru,
when they thought we'd never make it,
and now look at us tried and true.

My QB.
Comes up with plays
from music to cinematically viewed,
X's and O's she's put together
so I can see things from her point of view.

My QB,
a Bey-utiful light of a life
Whose lead others lives have pursued
and when the dark tries to ram"sack" her
God, her lead blocker, stands for her forever unmoved

My QB,
a QT (cutie)
Bey-uty exudes,
from your pores like Sunshine
such a Sweet Southern Heavenly Peach of a fruit.

My QB,
called me,
to show up to this game called life,
Already,
saw she,
is ready to face the world side by side.

So to My QB,
I'm coming up off these bad habits
and off the reserves,
I'm showing up like before
but with more action than words.

So when it's time again,
we'll say QB for cue Bey
I hear them chanting your name,
just always stay grounded,
balanced, and humbly & constantly praying.

Or maybe we'll say QB,
for the plays, moves, and moments
you made for our relationship to win,
But by the grace of God we know already
can taste how Bey-utiful our story will begin.

But to My QB,
you're a matriarch role model
to many all over the world,
a true queen, light that beams
with and without diamonds and pearls.

My cue B,
is to not step out afraid,
but to step out on faith,
it's not to step out on hate,
but to step out on faith,
it's not to step out on fate,
but to step out on faith.

Bey-cause it's not on my cue-Bey

it's on you,

It's your call...

....QB


~ Poem Written by AJW

It's amazing how powerful and potent and dangerous it is,
to live in a society that disregards, mis-educates, and misinforms communities and cultures.

To live in a society where the news' words, one of whom you thought you could trust,
so blatantly, obviously, regularly, and intentionally seeks to feed its constituents
falsities, lies, and mistruths.

A modern form of civil war is breaking out among us because
we allowed the darkness of a few to go on
unregulated, unchecked, unaccountable for their actions.

Now the dam democracy is leaking...

It started with the number of ppl at 45's inauguration.

It's now broken and flooding our entire national systems with
racism, domestic "patriot" terrorism, and other hate groups.

I C now,
that it is indeed in our hands,
in our ways,
on our tongues.

The power to create,
and the power to destroy.

The power to heal,
and the power to cause suffering.

The power to give,
and the power to be selfish.

And especially when it comes to democracy,
there is the power to bring together,
and the power to divide.

I like to think that President Biden,
like has been said of him,
is an optimist, like myself.

Always searching for the best of lighting
to shine and show our country in its best sides to the world.

We are more than our disparities,
we are more than our failures,
we are more than our falsehoods,
we are more than our bigotry
and, most importantly,
we are more than our separatists.

We are a country
built through coalitions,
built through unions,
built on trust and truths,

We are a community,
a nation with a diverse group

A collective that
sentimentally strives on our strengths,
are worth more than our weaknesses,
and is reliable, responsible, and as much respectful as is respected.

I am so proud of our country today,
as I smiled and beamed from ear to ear
watching the Inauguration proceedings.

Hopeful for this next chapter,
Prayerful for this new beginning,
and Grateful that I am alive to witness it.

Beloved, I pray that you and your family
were able to watch the swearing in of our
new First and Second Families.

I was flooded and filled with joy
watching Vice President Kamala Harris's swearing in,
It filled with pride and joy.

If only Dr. MLK could've been alive to
see our 44th President and our 46th Vice President.
I can only imagine the utter joy that would have
captured and swelled his heart.

To know that all his efforts,
all his trials and tribulations,
all his marches and boycotts,
and ultimately his life, which was the greatest sacrifice,
was not in vain.

It only shows all the more that
Seed of Democra-See is still in action,
and the light of those who still believe
in this country's unity, forbearance, and integrity
still cuts sharply through the darkest corners of
those trying to upend it.

So I thank God for this day,
and for allowing you and I
and so many others to be alive to witness it.

I am humbled, grateful, and touched
by this historic moment.

I pray God's blessings and protection
on our beloved 1st and 2nd families respectfully
and for the healing of this nation by God overall.

I now that with Him, through faith,
and patience, and love for our brothers and sisters,
we'll make this an amazing 4 years and more.

God bless America,

With Love to you Beloved,

:-D

~ Your A

Dearly Beloved,

Your love is without borders,
without boundaries and limits.

Honestly speaking,
I feel like God is telling me to
pursue the missionary work/humanitarian/philanthropic efforts
that you have already created once we get together.

I have some ideas that I hope you would be interested in!
(crosses fingers & keeping it in prayer that I may be able to share them with you in person one day)

:-D

I don't need nor want nor desire to be in forefront,
I JUST WANT TO HELP OTHERS
once this pandemic passes over us.

I would love to be alongside you as we spread charity initiatives all over the world.

I ask for humility and grace be poured out upon us
because there are so many who are not as fortunate.

And just like you,
my desire is to Bey-A-Light 4 the good.

You see it as your mission, your life's purpose beyond entertainment,
to set out to even the playing field on behalf of the less fortunate
no matter the category the topic may fall under.

And you attack the objective with the
same fervor, passion, wisdom, determination, grace, meekness,
tenderness, compassion, intelligence, and dignity as
every other assignment God has set Bey4U 2 accomplish.

I hope many young artists will produce
similar callings due to seeing you as an ever-ready example.

It's another reason why you are
not just the reason I wear my heart on my sleeve.

But you are the reason why
even if I never play another sound out of my guitar;
I know that missions and evangelism and outreach
are what I've morally been put on this Earth to do.

I'm just so happy that we share such A-Bey-utiful-Trait in common.

:-* (a tender kiss on your hands for all the work you've laid your hands on :-)

Anything I do on guitar now
I realize is just for the love of doing so.

I realize my career is not to be a full-time musician.

It's to think of ways to contribute pertinently and significantly to the human collective.

I get so much inspiration and motivation from your BeyGood campaigns.

It's something epic and the epitome of public service and being a public servant in terms of the worldwide citizens you reach and service.

You don't use rhetoric!

And that's what makes you shine Sweetheart!

It's what's in your heart to do naturally.

And for that you stay
on my sleeve,
in my heart,
and on my lips in my prayers to God for you.

Just always be reminded of the power of our God has.

He can open doors no man can open,
and He can close doors no man can shut.

So don't worry about my guitar talent/skill/career/etc.
because I'm leaving that up to God.

I just want you to know that even thru
everything I experienced last year,
we didn't lose one another.

I was watching Black is King again this evening
and it just amazed me all the Bey-utiful looks and scenes
and picturesque moments that went into the making of it.

There are other things that have happened in my house recently
from those who don't appreciate our relationship,
but I don't want to tell you all of them out of not wanting to cause you to worry.

Just know that if they try to
falsely accuse me,
intentionally drug me,
or mess with my family;

YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY

GOD SEES,
GOD HEARS,
AND, MOST IMPORTANTLY,
GOD KNOWS!

And just like He's been there for you,
keep praying like you always have for me,
and He'll see us through.

If it were up to some people,
I may have never been able to
write or record videos for you again.

But through the power of your prayers
to the Holy Spirit,
and Jesus', from Him praying as our Heavenly Intercessor,
I am still alive, complying to my medicinal regimen,
and thriving on this new found energy and love for you and my new purpose.

Just know that
if ever they try to take me away,
the only thing I've ever wanted was
for you to Bey-Happy,
for you to Bey-Loved,
for you to Bey-Joyous,
and for you to Bey-Fulfilled in all aspects of your life.

And I've never believed I could be the end all
to your happiness.

No, I believed that I was sent to you
to ENCOURAGE you to seek them for yourself.

It just so happens that we share
so many traits in common
that I could understand the jealousy
of others who find it farfetched for
such a person like you to even want to
consider a relationship with a nobody like me.

little me.

A.

A nobody.
A person with average looks,
A person with no obvious talents,
A person with no cultural substance,
A person with mediocre talent on guitar,
A person given a poor medical diagnosis.

Who am I to have the best of your love, life, and admiration?

But just as God told me to reach for you,
He also told you to reach for me.

And together, through His grace and
mercy and protection,
we are His Angelic Ambassadors

Romans 8:31 comes to mind,
"What shall we say about such wonderful things as these?"
If God is for us, who can ever be against us?

You have shown me thru your Bey-utiful
ORIGINAL TESTIMONY OF YOUR LIFE
put into words so many different ways
that above all the virtues we strive in,
if I had to choose 4 it would be

1. Love
2. Forgiveness
3. Hope
4. Faith

So I look over all the things your husband's followers
have done to my family and to our home
because it shouldn't stop me from
offering my forgiveness in hopes that
maybe he'll find it in his heart to
forgive me as well.

That he and I may call a truce
and let you and God decide
what God wants for your life next.

So as your A-ngelic Godsister,
I look up to you and desire for you
to have only the best God has
in store for you and your family.

I pray for you all constantly.

I love you deep deep to Momma BeyLoved

:-* (kiss on your two temples :-)

:-D

I wear you hard on my sleeve...

Good night,

~ A

I pray that today and every day your daughter is proud to be associated with these two colors.

One being the color of her skin, which was chosen by God.
And the other, to be the color of her name, which was chosen by you her parents.

I pray that she sees the amazing blessing and power and strength within these two colors.

I hope that she takes pride in them more and more as she gets older.

And as this is her last birthday under 2-digits, I pray she loves every moment of 9 years old.

I pray God continues to bless her with health and protection from the health crisis we are in.

I pray she continues to be a great example for her younger siblings.

I pray she allows herself to take her time learning something new so that she may value all the wonderful resources around her that show her the power of hardwork, consistency, and patience.

I pray for the best for her always.

I pray that she makes the decision to follow Christ on her own, when the time comes.

I look forward to that day.

These and so much more I wish for her. 

God bless and here is the prayer I created for her today.

With you in Christ,

~ A